Weight lifting workout for week 1/28/2019…when I feel like I am a potato.

This is one of those weeks that I feel like a potato. Something round and undesirable. This particular feeling rears it’s ugly head often enough. It may be from salt, it could be because I am close to my period/monthly time (never been regular that did not change after hysterectomy due to a tumor), and or it could just be my brain weasels.

I wore my tank top that says Will Is A Skill, and it really is. I had to will myself to do my workout and to just keep at it. I have heard of other people having this problem.

So this is how I cope. I try different things…

  • I try finding something that I like in the mirror. (that did not work today)
  • I sometimes go to the sports store and find cute workout tights, bra or shirt, or all the above. (I did not do that today.)
  • Sometimes I look up a different workout for me to try that day, it gives me something different to work on, and focuses my brain on the new thing. (I did not do that today.)
  • I try to find a treat snack that makes me feel like I am getting a treat and not eating something horrible. (For instance banana, almond butter, and dark chocolate chips… I did not do that today.)
  • Other days I just push myself through my workout. I make sure to push myself to get that extra rep in, or get that mile run under my normal time. ( Ding, ding, ding. I did this today. I get a satisfaction of completing a workout and the endorphins that come with it.)

I did the push myself through workout. While I am happy I completed the workout and got more reps in. I am still feeling meh. These coping mechanisms do not make the feeling go away entirely, they just let me continue my journey. I would feel entirely worse if I gave in to my mood and just gave up or did not do it. Anyway enough babbling.

My workout routine is Monday and Friday weight lifting and running, and Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday – Muay Thai, Kali, Krav and Striking.

Here is my weight lifting workout for the week: 48 minutes (note: go at your own pace I put my weights down for my reference.)

  • 22 minute run
  • 50 prison squats
  • 3 sets crush press x 10 reps at 50 lbs
  • 3 sets of tricep extension x 8 reps at 25 lbs
  • 3 sets of bulgarian split squats x 15 reps
  • 3 sets of bench dumbell glute bridges x 10 reps at 30 lbs

Keep up being awesome, and keep going. Even when the mean brain weasels are out and about. Luckily today is one of those days where I don’t have the time to deal with those thoughts. I have had to work this morning, came home at 12 pm, home school my kids, get into the gym, make dinner , and now go to work again till about 10:30 pm tonight.

Thanks for reading. Here is a motivational poster that makes me giggle.

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A Small Bit of Hope for the future… my progress pictures

Having one of those days where I need reminding that I have made progress. Some days I feel old and achy, and feel like I am not making progress. I am wearing the same shirt/tank here. I can see a small amount of progress… but I have to remember I also had a back injury in between the 3/10/2018 and yesterdays picture. Every day I look in the mirror I don’t see the progress. I know a lot of people have body dysmorphia and I am not a special snow flake, but that is why I take the pictures. (note: I am un-diagnosed with Body Dysmorphia, however, based on the fact that I focus on the negative and do not see the progress its a red flag and easy leap to make that assessment.) So at moments like these I can go back and look. Maybe an see some progress/hope to see progress. The pictures are my small hope that in the future I will see something better.

Please know I am not crying out for positive feedback. I don’t ever want to put the burden of constantly holding me up on my community, friends, and family. However, this is how I cope with some of the negative feelings that crop up. I look at my pictures, try to find some positive things/changes, and then soldier on. I can not make changes if I just sit there in inaction. So no matter how bad I feel, I push through. I acknowledge I am feeling this way, talk to people I trust, and then push through.

I don’t know if this will help anyone. But like I said this is how I try to cope. One day I will look back and hopefully be surprised how far I have come. My little bit of hope I put out into the world. =)