Category: body image

Weight lifting workout for week 1/28/2019…when I feel like I am a potato.

This is one of those weeks that I feel like a potato. Something round and undesirable. This particular feeling rears it’s ugly head often enough. It may be from salt, it could be because I am close to my period/monthly time (never been regular that did not change after hysterectomy due to a tumor), and or it could just be my brain weasels.

I wore my tank top that says Will Is A Skill, and it really is. I had to will myself to do my workout and to just keep at it. I have heard of other people having this problem.

So this is how I cope. I try different things…

  • I try finding something that I like in the mirror. (that did not work today)
  • I sometimes go to the sports store and find cute workout tights, bra or shirt, or all the above. (I did not do that today.)
  • Sometimes I look up a different workout for me to try that day, it gives me something different to work on, and focuses my brain on the new thing. (I did not do that today.)
  • I try to find a treat snack that makes me feel like I am getting a treat and not eating something horrible. (For instance banana, almond butter, and dark chocolate chips… I did not do that today.)
  • Other days I just push myself through my workout. I make sure to push myself to get that extra rep in, or get that mile run under my normal time. ( Ding, ding, ding. I did this today. I get a satisfaction of completing a workout and the endorphins that come with it.)

I did the push myself through workout. While I am happy I completed the workout and got more reps in. I am still feeling meh. These coping mechanisms do not make the feeling go away entirely, they just let me continue my journey. I would feel entirely worse if I gave in to my mood and just gave up or did not do it. Anyway enough babbling.

My workout routine is Monday and Friday weight lifting and running, and Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday – Muay Thai, Kali, Krav and Striking.

Here is my weight lifting workout for the week: 48 minutes (note: go at your own pace I put my weights down for my reference.)

  • 22 minute run
  • 50 prison squats
  • 3 sets crush press x 10 reps at 50 lbs
  • 3 sets of tricep extension x 8 reps at 25 lbs
  • 3 sets of bulgarian split squats x 15 reps
  • 3 sets of bench dumbell glute bridges x 10 reps at 30 lbs

Keep up being awesome, and keep going. Even when the mean brain weasels are out and about. Luckily today is one of those days where I don’t have the time to deal with those thoughts. I have had to work this morning, came home at 12 pm, home school my kids, get into the gym, make dinner , and now go to work again till about 10:30 pm tonight.

Thanks for reading. Here is a motivational poster that makes me giggle.

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Pants that pass the THICC girl booty test…squee!

My booty, but more importantly this pattern fabric is fantastic

Did you hear that all they way over there? That squee of delight when I just tried these pants on last night. I ordered these pants to try them out, and I did a 2.5 hours of training in Muay Thai and Kali. I got them on recommendation from my trainer/coach in Muay Thai. She uses them, and I thought, hey I will give it a try.

I am always on the look out for good workout tights. I work out about 5 to 6 days a week. So I need pairs of tights that will perform, not break down after two washes, have some compression (the ugly truth is I have loose skin from losing 70 lbs), are comfortable to wear and fit over my posterior, and bonus is they have awesome patterns and styles. However, as I have children and a family I could not just buy all the things I wanted. I decided to try one pair of pants.

I will give you all the pros and cons of these pants so far as I see them. I got the Dragon Skin Next Level Leggings.

Pros:

  • They don’t use the “standard” size numbering system, that was developed not taking into account different bodies of all different kinds of women. They use their own models names, and measurements. If you get your measurements and order by that, you will have a great fitting garment.
  • The stitching is strong and stands up to vigorous exercise. (Note: Thighs that rub together. )
  • The fabric feel fantastic its silky and thick, wicks sweat, and moves with your body as you do your exercise. It does not feel cheap.
  • It passed the panty test. (When standing you cannot see the panties through too shear fabric, also normal stretching and bending did not reveal any view of panties.) (I have had tights that you could read the writing on them through the pants just standing there.)
  • The pants stay up, no rolling or sliding down the body.
  • It passes the thicc booty test. (When you have a larger posterior, often times patterns will get distorted and look horrible if they are stretched over an area. It also draws attention those areas that are larger and you may not want to have attention drawn to. As you can see the stretch was perfect and did not distort the pattern. )
  • Last but not least they have fantastic customer service. (They noticed right after I ordered that they were out of the pants I ordered. I had not been to my computer so I did not see the email. In a mater of 24 hours customer service person Chloe had emailed me that they did not have my pants, and did I want to change it, or for the trouble cancel and get money toward a different order? Then in the next hour she emailed me once more that she found them in their Canadian store and was going to have the Canadian fulfillment center send them to me. Heidi was fantastic from the Canadian side as well. )

Cons:

  • For me really the only con so far is that pant leg is long on me. I am a short person. 5 foot, so everything is long on me. But really its not all that much of a con. I am going to try their capri’s next. You can see them bunched up around my ankles in the pictures.
  • Front view
  • Side view
  • Side view
  • View with Grrrl logo
  • Side view
  • Pattern in different less light

Now about packaging. Generally when I go to the store, I have been trying to use less disposable bags. So I did not think I would care about the packaging for this. However, I think they used just enough packaging to ensure that my garment got to me safely, but made the packaging meaningful. I love the little details. The purple-pink of the outer packaging, and the washing instructions on the outer brown paper bag packaging. Both are recyclable and they brought a smile to my face. The best surprise was the tag that the pants had. If you were giving this to a friend, you could address the garment to them.

” In today’s society we are programmed to see each other as competition. At Grrrl, we are changing the game. We exist to break the cycle of competition, and band together as sisters.

As our newest member for the #GRRRLARMY, your initiation consists of letting another Grrrl know something great about her, because chances are, she doesn’t see it in herself.

Flip this card over and fill in the blanks. Sometimes it’s easier to write it down and hand it over. “

Other side:

” Hey Grrrl-FRIEND! I wanted to tell you that

_____________________

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Don’t forget, you were born perfect. You go Grrrl!”

You can see in the pictures below if you want. There is not much more to say. I was not paid for this review. It is just how I feel about this product.

I did find on their website that I could become an ambassador for them, and they will give me credit. They gave me a link I could give you, and a 20% off coupon that you can use when you decide to order. Even if they did not have the ambassador program, I would still support this company. It is doing good things for us girls/women/ladies out there. We need to lift up and support each other.

Here is my Thinks with Spinks link for you to try, and below is the coupon code.

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As always thanks for reading, and let me know what you think.

  • Packaging
  • Washing instructions
  • Pants
  • This tag says it all
  • Other side of tag

A Small Bit of Hope for the future… my progress pictures

Having one of those days where I need reminding that I have made progress. Some days I feel old and achy, and feel like I am not making progress. I am wearing the same shirt/tank here. I can see a small amount of progress… but I have to remember I also had a back injury in between the 3/10/2018 and yesterdays picture. Every day I look in the mirror I don’t see the progress. I know a lot of people have body dysmorphia and I am not a special snow flake, but that is why I take the pictures. (note: I am un-diagnosed with Body Dysmorphia, however, based on the fact that I focus on the negative and do not see the progress its a red flag and easy leap to make that assessment.) So at moments like these I can go back and look. Maybe an see some progress/hope to see progress. The pictures are my small hope that in the future I will see something better.

Please know I am not crying out for positive feedback. I don’t ever want to put the burden of constantly holding me up on my community, friends, and family. However, this is how I cope with some of the negative feelings that crop up. I look at my pictures, try to find some positive things/changes, and then soldier on. I can not make changes if I just sit there in inaction. So no matter how bad I feel, I push through. I acknowledge I am feeling this way, talk to people I trust, and then push through.

I don’t know if this will help anyone. But like I said this is how I try to cope. One day I will look back and hopefully be surprised how far I have come. My little bit of hope I put out into the world. =)